Lens

The soul takes disruptions,

crashes, malice,

and inconceivable brutalities –

and then

it somehow lifts,

flies and loves again.

A veil of injustice is removed

and life is seen

the way the Divine intended to show it:

through a photographic lens

that magnifies the beauty,

extracts a moment,

and captures it in color.

This is the moment it knows

when all else around

becomes a backdrop.

Once that scene becomes the focus

nothing else really matters –

nothing is ever the same again.

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Ripple-less

View from Craggy Pinnacle Blue Ridge Mtns.

Flawless green humps seen in distance

under the loud silence

surfing the earth

as God sits and watches

the serenity of the land.

Ripple-less melody under the fog

escape in the horizon

washing and clearing

the echo of nature.

This magnitude of knowing

peace and faith

allows for release.

How can one stand above the world

without feeling the omnipotence

wonder of existence?

The vastness,

the vacancy,

the void-ness,

reaches inside of spirit

and awakes everything.

The peaking of morning,

the scoop of evening,

is the flow and essence

of every part of life here.

It is the ALL in the universe…

the everything of anything…

the complete I AM.

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Intergrate

Ask me anything
And I will tell you
All that you want
To hear.

But look into my eyes,
Touch my spirit with yours,
And I will sing
All that is me
From the heart.

That is all I am.
Don’t ask me.
Let me be your reflection
And love will
Turn one
Into two.

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Counting Blessings

“Before you act, listen. Before you react, think. Before you spend, earn. Before you criticize, wait. Before you pray, forgive. Before you quit, try.”-Ernest Hemingway

Before getting out of bed this morning I struggled with moving.  After such a delicious night of continuous sleep I began to think it was a crime to get out of the coolness of my covers and room.  Once I opened up the blinds, the sliding door, the windows and I breathed in the cool mountain air, the fog ever so present, I geared up to take this day with zest enjoying the laughter of an 8 month old in the background.  It is hard to stay put with so much beauty around here.  Just like the quote, before you act, listen.  Listen to your body and your spirit.  It will always tell you how to act, react, love, pray and try.  By stopping and paying attention to everything you are allowing spirit, not ego, to watch out for you. You are connecting with the Divine.  It’s that simple.  Tell yourself something that counts in your life.  Hold it for a moment and then go out and cherish the possibilities this new day will bring.    I am grateful for this adventure of life. 

Have a great morning and a fabulous day!  Gotta go get me a morning piece of nature, love and life…!

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Floating in the Universe

I am always checking out new holistic modalities. Anything that challenges and betters mind, body and spirit has my full-undivided attention. The deeper we travel into our awareness the healthier we become. It doesn’t stop with massages, biofeedback therapy, cranial sacral therapy, hypnosis, and psychotherapy (to name a few). My best friend and business partner, Bobbie, heard from a friend about Flotation Therapy. We began researching it and found a spa in Asheville called Still Point Wellness that has a salt water floatation chamber. She made an appointment for both of us. Bobbie went a few days ago and came back giddy. She didn’t share much of her experience as not to cloud mine. I couldn’t wait for my turn. The thought of being in complete darkness, sensory deprived, floating over a ton of Epsom salt for an hour and a half filled me with an intoxication for my sense of adventure. I had done research for several days about others’ experiences: the highs, the psychic awareness, relaxation, self exploration, meditation, healing of aches and pains, long term healing, and so many other yummy conscious journeys. I was definitely not disappointed!

This morning I ventured to Downtown Asheville to a quaint spa near my favorite Starbucks. It was suggested that I didn’t have caffeine before getting my session (a killer for me in the morning time). The place was exceptional. Their office staff consists of this beautiful young woman who makes you feel like you’ve been long lost friends forever. I love that! She explained several things about the chamber. I was glad before arriving Bobbie had shared some details of first impressions. She asked to please give it a try when they opened the door to this dark room. Having suffered from claustrophobia for most of my life that initial exposure of darkness with a closed door is daunting. The smell of salt water felt like being out to sea. Once I was inside, naked, my body feeling light, I took a deep breath and everything melted.

I cannot explain what really happened to me without sounding like a way-over-the-top hippie. Once I began floating I had no perception. It seemed that every conscious feeling, emotion, reflection,thought, or sense of reality was shut outside the room. It is the darkest physical place I’ve ever been in. For an avid meditation practitioner it is heaven. I don’t know what happened but I was transferred to outer space. Now, you are definitely thinking she’s on something! I was in Oneness. I felt like Sandra Bullock on the movie Gravity. With eyes wide opened I began to see the universe. I began to understand the beginning…. And, this is where I leave you with my experience. Yours will be entirely different. All I can say is that the deprivation of sound, substance, and light allows the floater to experience everything (s)he is and is not.

I can understand why floating therapy has become popular as spa places are popping up in many large cities with these floating rooms. I can see how anyone can get hooked. The high one receives from those alone moments weightlessly moving through darkness is profound. As I was driving back up the mountain, taking in the gorgeous summer views, I had a thought: how does a person who can’t be alone stay in that room for the first time? How can that person stand the thoughts that must come and go as time stops? I can shut anything out of my brain. I can go to total nothingness, the chamber was the most incredible place to coincide with my mind. But, I am aware that our society cannot let go of thoughts. We are programmed to constantly be stimulated. I was filled with giddiness just like Bobbie. I even skipped on my Starbucks Latte. It wasn’t necessary. I was on a psychedelic high that can only be explained as the release of toxins, emotions and all that triggers the mind and body. I was on the best spiritual journey that money can buy. I was in my own retreat, ashram, and vacation for 90 minutes. Don’t believe me? You try it and see if you feel otherwise! But, be aware that once you are in there time stops and the only person you have to answer to is you. Sometimes that’s what is needed to heal. If you are honest with yourself this chamber experience can be the beginning of getting to know the real you.

www.stillpointwellness.com

81-B Central Avenue, Asheville, NC

828-348-5372 opened Monday-Sunday 10 am – 8 pm

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Architect of Dreams

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There is an abundance of wishes and dreams out there for the taking.  If you haven’t visualized or expressed your goals and dreams to the Universe, don’t complain.  Don’t make excuses for not allowing the flow of dreams to appear into your life.  You and the Universe are the co-creators of your life. You are the most powerful genie in the world.

Five years ago, in the midst of a horrible break-up, I began a visualization-map-questing-dream journal.  In this book I pasted pictures of things I wanted in the future.  Most of them were of a small retreat center in the mountains.  I had no idea how I was going to buy the place or what state it would be in. But, I gathered all types of magazines from Oprah’s O to log cabins and outdoor activities.  I carefully placed these visual guides inside pages and then wrote out what I wanted, but as if I already had it.  I created powerful intentions. For example, instead of writing “I want a home in the mountains” I wrote, “I live in the mountains and have a retreat center that provides relaxation, healing and peace for all those who enter.”  I even put the name of this retreat in the book.  I added events and activities such as hiking, fishing, hammocks in the woods, chairs by creeks, yoga, labyrinth, etc.   I loaded the journal up with pictures, inspiring quotes, words, events, and exact notes of what I also did not want. I have learned that the Universe will also give you the things you don’t want. 

My dream was to be able to map out this place and let God guide me there.  A year later, while on vacation with my best friend, we stayed in this little motel in the mountains of Western North Carolina.  The place was for sale.  Two months later we were living here.  I had put my journal of dreams away. When I began to unpack boxes I found this visual guide of hopes and desires.  As I flipped through the pages that had been created over a year before, I couldn’t believe that the place we purchased had all the elements I had glued in it.  And, even now four years after being here, I open up the book and find that we are still creating more of the things that had carefully been placed in it.  Once again, without much financial support, we are getting the things I had asked the Universe to provide. I continue to add to this book and make clear intentions of what we want for the future of this little retreat center.

We are trained, programmed, and manipulated by society to believe that dreams don’t always come true.  We are impatient in waiting.  So we blame God and the higher powers for not giving us our desires. Well, they don’t come true if you don’t work at it!  You have to visualize what you want and then work towards that goal.  Abundance and prosperity are endless.  Dreams guide us.  The same goes for things we don’t want.  If we are constantly focusing on what we don’t want we will get those things as well. I believe I am a trust-fund baby of the Universe with unlimited abundance. As long as I stay in this frequency there is nothing I cannot manifest.

Several years ago the famous little book The Secret hit the bookshelves.  The books sold by the millions.  I was completely surprised.  I was brought up in a house where we all created little poster boards with the dreams we wanted.  My sister had hers in her closet.  I had mine behind the bedroom door.  My mother had hers in her room.  We all had these little visual reminders of things we wanted in the near future.  So, when the bestselling book became so famous I had to ask myself, “Do people not realize that they create their own futures?  Do they not realize that there is an unlimited abundance of dreams out there for the taking?”  I guess not! This isn’t a new formula for health, wealth, prosperity, and any desire. This is how we are created!

My wish for you, as I am sitting right now observing life outside my window (kids kayaking in the pond while others fish, the mountains in the backdrop, a couple drinking their coffee in our red chairs, someone meditating by the picnic tables) is that you awake to the truth that YOU create your future. There’s no magic genie, saint, or man in the sky that chooses what you can have in life. YOU are the creator, maker, and magnificent architect of your life’s plan. I hope you map out the things you want and work towards those desires. And, if by chance you have no clue of what you want then make a list of things you are grateful for everyday.  Be present in your life.  Be honest and be aware of your actions.  Use your creative gifts to gather pictures of things you like. Be kind, generous and have an open heart.  Where there is passion, God follows.  Divine intervention is always there with you, checking off the things your mind creates.  Stay in a place of divine light, joy, and love. From that place of giddiness the child in you can play and manifest. Be careful with your thoughts! Choose wisely and have fun!

“You will get what you want, when you stop making excuses on why you don’t have it.” Author Unknown

I would visualize things coming to me.  It would just make me feel better.  Visualization works if you work hard.  That’s the thing.  You can’t just visualize and go eat a sandwich.” Jim Carrey

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37 Life Lessons

My second son turns 24 today.  He has become and continues to evolve into an amazing young man.  I marvel at his growth, his choices and how he stands for his beliefs.  Yesterday we met up in town for a bit.  I wanted to give him more than I could at the time.  I came home to create this list of lessons and suggestions for living authentically reaching his favorite number of 37.  Happy birthday, my darling son!  Life is truly magical and inspiring.  It can get messy at times but it’s so worth the ride.  Thank you for continuously teaching me so much about myself.  I love you, baby!

1. Don’t let anyone step on your thoughts, dreams or passion.

2. Creativity is sign language from the Divine. Read great books, write your heart out, be moved by films, be touched by music, create from a place that’s raw and awesome.

3. Love is eternal. Always keep an open heart.  When the heart breaks it is a wonderful opportunity to expand as it is healing.

4. Laugh as often as you can.  Laugh at everything. Humor heals the mind, body and spirit.

5.  Wear a tutu, mix-matched socks and color your world.  Hold your pants with a shoelace. There are no rules.

6.  Be in nature and feel the presence of Mother Earth always grounding you.

7.  You are never alone. You might not see or feel, but you are always being loved and guided.

8.  You are the creator of your destiny. Align your thoughts with the universe.  You are your own genie.

9.  Every day is a chance to do it right.  Don’t beat yourself up.  This shall pass.  Give it time.  Try and try again.

10. Kindness is the key and compassion is the lock to healing the treasures of humanity.

11. You need to remember why you are here. Find joy and it will open the memory bank of your purpose for this life.

12. You must honor you first and foremost.

13.  Life is a second. Enjoy the journey. It passes quickly. Have no regrets.

14. Do nothing. Do anything. But don’t complain. Suffering is a choice.  You are never a victim.  You are a survivor.

15. Travel, even if to the next town. Explore your surroundings.  Let the outside world be your teacher.

16. Anger is a great source of fire but if not contained it will burn you. Let it go.  Nothing is worth that negativity.

17. Forgiveness is not for anyone but yourself.

18. Eat with passion, drink wine, and do whatever you want in moderation.

19. Don’t blend through life. Stand out as you are. You are the best version of you there will ever be.

20. Sleep! Sleep as much as you want. Don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for wanting and needing rest.

21. F*ck is a wonderful word. F*ck whatever anyone thinks of it. Sometimes it is the only word that can be expressed.

22. Everyone shits. And everyone’s shit stinks. Don’t let anyone make you feel otherwise. No one is better than you.

23. You are beautiful. No amount of makeup, surgeries or anything can change the light in you. Fill the vastness of emptiness with love for yourself.

24. It’s great to have people in your life but ultimately you are responsible for you alone.

25. Whenever you have kids remember they aren’t your ownership. Let them learn to find their way.

26. Making love is very different than sex. Respect your body. Don’t let anyone kill your self-worth.

27. Vulnerability is strength.  Allow yourself to fall and ask for help.  We are in this together.  You don’t have to carry the world on your shoulders. Some days you are the teacher and other days the student.

28. Money is not the root of all evil.  It is a great source of energy to use and help others.  The more you believe in its magical powers of giving, the more you will receive.

29. Fear and control are child-like monsters occupying the darkest part of your psyche. They are not real.

30. Live life with all that is meant to be: pure joy, love, and light.

31. God is always in you. You are the oneness of all. The world will try and tell you otherwise but you know better. Wake up to the truth.  Don’t let the years pass by with uncertainty.  You know what you know because you are divinity.

32. I will love you no matter what happens. Even if I didn’t know you I would still know that you and I are connected through breath.

33. Meditate, pray and be with yourself. It is there that you will find you.

34. Judgment is based on insecurities and ignorance. You can never understand another unless you are inside of their soul.  This serves no one. Be kind to those you see every day.  Notice the drama of life and all its falsehood.

35. A compliment to anyone is the best gift you can give them along with a smile.

36. Stay present. Don’t let your ego travel to places it will never really visit.

37. You are a creation of a million cells generating mystical thoughts, powers, and emotions. Treat your uniqueness and honor yourself.

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